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...it's because he doesn't really know that he is my main squeeze. 

   

   and he might not know it at all...

"For all I know you only see me as a friend.
I try to tell myself wake up fool; this fairy tale's got to end..."

                                                              -balisong;rivermaya

            

there was a strange flower that grew in the middle of the hill,

surrounded by all common sorts of flowers.

it stands out from the rest --- its beauty was really impeccable and its fragrance blossoms through the air.

      no other flower could withstand its beauty.

then one day, a little girl accidentally discover the strange flower.

         she was stunned by its beauty that became fond of it.

more and more each day, the girl fell in love with the flower.

until one day, to her dismayed, she found out that there was also a little girl who stumbled upon her precious flower.

        she became extremely mad that she picked the flower and ran away.

        no one would be able to see its beauty and be captivated with its charm.

       but she cried so hard when she noticed that the flower was losing its beauty...dying slowly of suffocation.

        AND IT REALLY BROKE HER HEART WHEN SHE REALIZED THAT BY HER OWN HANDS, SHE KILLED THE FLOWER SHE HAD LOVED.

                                                           ►aVs

                                                             (8:29pm)

(this was supposedly for kids kaso tragic yung ending...and wala ako maisip na title so i have to leave it blank...
FYI:di ako heart-broken ha?!!!gusto ko lang ng tragic na ending hahahaö)

being with him after a long time makes me linger the next time we will be together again!

5:20pm

yeah...i know, i should be happy since i am given notification that i'm included in the shortlist, meaning i've surpassed the nosebleeding examination the hr gave us. 

there's only three of us who are shortlisted for that position and i could tell that i am 99.9% confident that i will be the one whom they'll choose...

there's only one vacancy for that position 

which means they only have to choose one among the three of us...

but the catch is...

one of them is my best buddy during my college years...:(

haayyyyyy! tomorrow is the judgment day for us!

~*~

8:26pm

just a little while ago...

the hr of (---) called me and set my final interview tomorrow since i also passed the test and the initial interview...auhhh!!! i'm torn! if only i could be in two places at one time!...

Lord help me to discern which way i should take!, may Your will be done on me! :/

it's nice to reminisce with old time buddy!ö

after some jurassic months...

maine: naalala mo ba yung crush mo dati??

me: (laughing so hard)

maine: ano ba kasi nagustuhan mo dun..weirdo yung taong yun, tumatakbo pag nakikita ka o kaya naman ilalabas yung phone niya at kunwari may kakausapin sa phone...feeling niya ata ilalagay mo siya sa sako at kikidnapin...

me: grabe namiss ko tuloy siya...pag nakita ko ulit siya sisiguraduhin ko na may dala na akong butterfly trap, ilalagay ko siya sa sako at itatali...gusto ko siya maging pet!!! blah blah blah...

maine: avs, are you watching too much cartoons??!!!

"how to be an artist"

i love to maximize these things while im still alive...

Stayloose.Learntowatchsnails.
Plantimpossiblegardens.Invite
someonedangeroustotea.Make
littlesignsthatsayyes!andpostthemalloveryourhouse.
Makefriendswithfreedomanduncertainty.
Lookforwardtodreams.Cryduringmovies.
Swingashighasyoucanonaswingsetbymoonlight.
Cultivatemoods.Refusetobe“responsible”Doitforlove.
Takelotsofnaps.Givemoneyaway
Doitnow.Themoneywillfollow.
Believeinmagic.Laughalot.
Celebrateeverygorgeousmoment.
Takemoonbaths.Havewildimaginings.
Transformativedreamsandperfectcalm.
Drawonwalls.Readeveryday.Imagineyourselfmagic.
Gigglewithchildren.Listentooldpeople.
Openup.Divein.Befree.Blessyourself.
Driveawayfear.Playwitheverything.
Entertainyourinnerchild.Youareinnocent.
Buildafortwithblankets.Getwet.Hugtrees.
Writeloveletters.

                                                                   (by: Sarah Sark)

even shakespeare get jealous with others' fate

When, in disgrace with fortune and men's eyes,
I all alone beweep my outcast state
And trouble deaf heaven with my bootless cries
And look upon myself and curse my fate,
Wishing me like to one more rich in hope,
Featured like him, like him with friends possess'd,
Desiring this man's art and that man's scope,
With what I most enjoy contented least;
Yet in these thoughts myself almost despising,
Haply I think on thee, and then my state,
Like to the lark at break of day arising
From sullen earth, sings hymns at heaven's gate;
For thy sweet love remember'd such wealth brings
That then I scorn to change my state with kings.
(Sonnet 29)

after a loooooooonnnnnngggggggg 
and another much loooonnnnnnnnnnnnnggggeeerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr 
W-A-I-T-I-N-G and contemplation (clip with prayers and faith)...


i can feel (because i know so!!!) that i will have my long awaited job 



SOON!!!!!!!!...




at long last...~whew~

12:20pm

 courtesy from: matt (wardman wire site)

 before i go to my appointment...

my inner desires beseech me to reconsider and re-evaluate the things that i am about to bury within my galaxy-of-memories-that-i-am-planning-forget...


oh well got to go... :/

commissioning is all over...one of the brightest day that God has given me:)

so what now?!!! hahahahahaö five months is enough for me to decide which path i will take...it's a total risk for me to gamble with the card that i am holding, but my heart find its solace in it.

yeah, it's a hard decision though, for it means saying goodbye to the dreams i have long long ago...hahaayyy

but i am not closing whatever possibilities that may occur in the future (or even now!) ill just let God handle my uncertainties in life.

well one thing is for sure that i can regard to myself...I WILL ALWAYS DOUBT MY DOUBTS!ö


p.s do i know someone who is from mandaluyong?!!!!

moving on...

i'm still thinking whether or not i will abandon this site or delete all of this and move along to the other side...hmmmm?!!!!!!!!

black vs color

another fierce look? just take a gentle glance...
frowning? please smile back...
walking away? say hi instead...
are you offended? i didn't mean to...
is it too obvious? 'coz avoiding you is the only thing to do...

i've ignored all your undermining, yet,
your fierce look have taunted my guts.
paranoid has chilled my goosebumps when you frown,
and i have been gasping for air as you slowly walked away. ♫