courtesy from "happysad archives"

i like this comic strip...it's a simple drawing yet it completely depicted what i felt before.

it's a total "weird" feeling missing someone whom you didn't even met yet or someone you actually knew but you have no idea that he or she is the one whom you are missing, until you got into mix-ed situation where you will realize that he/she is the ONE...(hahahaha are you getting my point or i'm not making sense at all?)

According to what I've researched, the word DESIRE originated from Latin word desidare which later adapted by Anglo-French and later Middle English. It is a verb that is define by merriam-webster.com as "to long or hope for : exhibit or feel desire for <desire success>".

For the past few months since after my graduation, I prayed hard to be hired. Unfortunately, because of some uncontrollable circumstances, I failed to be in. (COMING SOON: STORIES OF BEHIND THE SCENES AND BLOOPERS OF ALL MY JOB INTERVIEWS...exciting ba?)

Pero sa totoo lang, di ko naman pinagsisisihan ang mga nangyari. Narealize ko lang, marami ako pinalampas na opportunities at maraming offers na tinanggihan. Hindi naman kasi mahirap maghanap talaga ng work eh, ang mahirap hanapin eh yung marginal utility o satisfaction na tinatawag. I'm NOT also making things to be complicated (sino ba ayaw ng simpleng paraan diba?). Actually, nahihiya ako pag tinatanong ako kung may work na ba ako, kumusta na ang application ko, kelan ako magkakawork...Nahihiya rin ako pag may tinatanggihan ako na offer, di ko kasi masabi sakanila na di yun ang work na feeling ko maggrow ako...basta pag yan ang topic gusto ko na i-divert sa iba ang topic. Pakiramdam ko kasi di nila ako naiintindihan kung bakit til now wala parin. Kahit na malaki ang starting salary na i-offer nila sakin kung di naman ako masaya, it's no use at all.

I also believe in God's will. I know He has something in store for me. Di ko ito binibigyan ng pansin dati, pero napansin ko na lagi ko naeencounter ang word na "will" and "happiness" lately. I realized that I might be praying for the wrong prayer kaya di niya ako pinagbibigyan. Maybe He is still preparing me for something BIG that i always overlooked. But I know He will never fail me with my prayer na within this year ako mahihire. I doubt my doubts but I will trust on Him.


"if only they could see the angle that i want to see in my viewfinder and the portrait that i want to take, maybe then they will understand what my lips are not saying..."